Friendship Down The Gutter

[r1v3th3ad]

Well, the kid I called a best friend for the past 2 and 1/2 yrs of my life, I just tossed out the window a few hours ago. Damn this is a total emotional drag.
I really thought that he was a great friend and a good person, but this whole time, he has just been trying to buy my friendship on another one of his egotrips...
The ending words actually had him saying how much he gave and did for me.

Well, this all ties down to the ex-fiance. He always was there to pick up the pieces and glue them together, or so I thought. It turns out all along, he'd be telling me that he would try to fix it, but I should leave her, when really he's telling me that and her that...telling both sides to break up.
Well, New Years, I passed out after about 20 double shots and then a double shot of Everclear. Whilst I was out, he tried something with her and failed...he got a kiss in and she told him to back off...now, I had confronted him partially on that tonight and he blamed it on his use of nht that night and being drunk...he wasn't drunk when I passed out and he didn't have anything to drink after I did...

Anyway, this was a big part of the reason that she ended the engagement, she felt guilty because he twisted it around to make her feel that it was her fault that had happened that night...she was wasted, he took her to go to bed, once she was in bed bout ready to pass out, he leaned in for a big kiss, with a boner, trying to get some ass...I'm a room over passed out and he's trying to get with the fiance of the person he calls a best friend...fuck that.
So she felt guilty and ended it. Since then, me and her have been pretty much together, just no titles. Since that day, he has been flirting with her non-stop, I just found this out. The reason I found out is that the other day, he pretty much called her a cheap whore and that he woulda just fucked her outta pitty...that he would have been doing her a favor. There is too much to fill in the blanks there, but to put it as brief as possible, she never wanted him and told him no sooo many times. He was talking about this girl he liked and she told him to shut up because she didn't want to hear him blabbering anymore. He thought she was jealous and said some of the above and then somemore.
I just can't get over this whole thing...I just got a voicemail from him calling me a piece of shit. I'm a piece of shit?
This girl means the world to me and me to her, and he has been trying to fuck it up all along.
Well, one thing to him(if he reads this, he trolls here once in a blue moon): Thanks Jeff, you made us realize our love more than ever, something all along that you threw a fake mustache on to make us question it. I know all your lies man, every last one. I know how you twisted everything I've ever done and said and made her think twice, but now we both know the truth and are starting over fresh with a new spark. It was fun for a while, but its time to go separate ways. I hope you have fun with your nht abuse, and I hope you work out your mental instabilities instead of trying to kill yourself again.

Sorry guys, just had to vent a bit cuz this has my head fuzzy...just makes ya think twice about trust, friendship, and love. He just now sent me a sorta appology message "you're not getting the whole story pat. It takes 2 to tango. Take care of yourself. I'll miss you bro."

Catch you all around the board, I think I'm gonna go drink a few fifths for the good memories, not the bad.

[NickReppinThe909]

fuck drinkin i'd take out his knees with a louisville slugger if i was you

you can borrow mine its weighted with 1lb of lead and painted flat black for the ultimate fear factor

[ryno]

dude, losing best friends sucks, and I've been there. Had a gf for about 7 months and absolutly loved her, to find out she was cheating on me with my 'best' friend'. somehow, me and him remained friends for the next 2 years....

however, this past year, coming home from school, 5 of my best friends for the last 4 years have had nothing but a total 'fuck you' attitude towards me. When I say best friends, I mean everyday we were hanging out everyday, as close as friends could be. Two of us were Paul Bears at my friends g-mas funeral. I remember on New Years 07, we were actually in our smoke room, in tears, thinking about all the good times, and not wanting to leave for school. Before we left for college, we all agreed that nothing would change, and we would always be friends. We didnt want to be that group that drifted apart.... aparently, they wanted to drift apart from me....

hang in there though, things always work out for the better even if they dont look like they will... i know cliche, but its true

[.cOLt.45.]

I'd say kick his ass... That's just me though. Kick his ass and tell him to fuck off. After all the shit he's done to you he deserves it.

[Johnny_D]

I'm with Nick.

Direct action is the way togo.

[NUBBS]

Its better to have loved then to never know love at all. As a far as friends go, thats pretty harsh.

[r1v3th3ad]

He's not worth my time for the ass kicking...I'd have to drive all the way down to Morgantown WV from Pittsburgh Pa...for once it is a kid who's ass I could kick, but considering the good ones we had had, not worth it...He's the one that brought me up my first batch of Hookah Hookah and Hookah Freak, $70 of some legal NHT, a case of Blue Moon, and a handle of Everclear, amongst other things that tie in great memories. I'm gonna leave it as it is and the peace I have said to him, I'll watch my messages, if he needs something clearified, he'll get it, if he wants to call me a fucking scrotum licker, I'll respond...but, I'm ready to move on.

damn, I feel like I'm getting divorced or something...

[*HOT&SMOKING*]

I am so sorry to hear this r1.

I hope you recover and pick yourself up and that asshol must fuck off, what an ass to do that!!!!

[r1v3th3ad]

Ya, he just posted a blog a lil bit ago, one thing that makes it a lil easier...the whole thing is a confess all type of thing...he still places the blame on her, yet admits the criminal and despicable person he truly is inside.
If you guys really want to see what he had to say, I can post it later, at request.

[.cOLt.45.]

Request

[r1v3th3ad]

8:29 AM - An Honest Pile Of Nonsence And Hypocracy
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends

So things have ended between me, Pat and Heather. And she wrote a nice little blog about it, calling me all sorts of things that she herself is guilty of, but of course because I hurt her, I'm the only asshole here. And furthermore, of course I'm an asshole to Pat, in spite of all the free shit and brotherhood I've heaped on him over the years (regardless of whether or not he acknowledges it or calls it some kind of deception). And understandably, when I found out, I was hurt. I was pissed. But now, hours after the fact and cooled down.....I find that it's not anger brewing inside of me. Instead, I'm ELATED!



They're right!! I'm a lying, cheating asshole who like to hurt people and manipulate them for my own amusement. I've just been hiding under the assumption that I'm a decent human being who has the potential to care for another. That's just not true. My teacher in such matters helped me learn what it is to pull another person's strings. The only difference between he and I was my false sense of remorse and decency when I was finished, or that my motives were more pure than his, or that I was a better person because of some internal lie of ethics and morality.



Recent events have made me realize, however, that there is NO REASON to feel this way. If I get my mental rocks off deliberately interfering in the lives of others, then that's what I'm gonna do. If I feel like destroying something beautiful, I'm gonna destroy it, if for no other reason than it amuses me. And my God, what a sense of power this provides!! Accepting this truth about myself is like holding a live power cable to my mind; I feel energized and honest for the first time in YEARS!!



And yes, this embellishes my ego in ways difficult to describe. I suppose the only thing more delightful about the process than the hurt I leave in my wake is the knowledge that I played everyone from start to finish, and for as long as I so chose they fell right in line with it. Of course, after the fact they all say that they saw right through it from the beginning, such is my transparency. But that's just words designed to make themselves feel better about getting played so utterly and completely. Besides, to get to their minds, I appeal to their vanity as well, so the egotism is present on both sides, if only for a while.



So here is my honest opinion about this whole mess called IUP. Dearest, sweetest Heather.....awwww. Somebody hurt little H's feelings, and now she's trying to write a cold and logical blog devoid of all but the slightest hint of hurt and pain in an effort to make me feel bad and "expose" me for what I really am. Please. That little diatribe you scribbled is no more than a thinly veiled attempt to cover up the fact that I hurt you, because I got close to you, on a level even Pat hadn't. And you cite all these people that side with you and think I'm such an asshole. Well two things there. One, they're right. I am a jackass to all but those I deem worthy of honesty in my life (a list that totals 10, I might add). And two, you say you can produce all these former "friends" of mine that think I'm a jerk? Well, I can produce a ton of people that think Jason is the Anti-Christ. Hell, I can even introduce you to one guy that thinks the Pope is a space alien. You know what they all have in common? A series of biased opinions that no one is going to change because of what the other person has said and done in their lifetime. You got a bunch of people that say I'm an ass? Fine. Have them drive down here and do something, or just shut the hell up and go back to your tiny existence in some dirt place in PA that I couldn't give a rat's ass about. At the end of the day, you've got words and opinions, and 200 miles in between you and I. I'm glad you took all the time to write some hatespeech directed at me when you should be angry with yourself for falling for the same act I've used on a thousand people before and a thousand more to come.



I learned so well from my former teacher, and even so many years after the fact, his lessons finally start to make sense. Everything is possable and attainable under the right conditions, and when those conditions don't exist, apply pressure until they do.



Still, I'm no professional at manipulating others like my former teacher is. I fail periodicly, or get too complex in my lies to the point where it collapses. But each time, I learn something new, and I become better at it. So I'll keep bounding from place to place, and friend group to friend group just like my former teacher did (Trinity, Moon township, IUP, Germany, etc) until I master my craft and settle in a permanent place, confident in my ability to maintain control without anyone finding out or noticing. I just need to learn to be a bit more precise and a touch less forceful......



Anyway, I've got plans later today, so I must tie up this little rant of a personal nature. Surprisingly, in spite of losing you both, I have a grin I can't seem to wipe off my face. I will miss Pat, for as simple as that boy was and is he was just too gullible to be anything but a sincere friend. The fact that he got mixed up in this and brainwashed by only hearing Heather's side of the story is both ironic (considering I stand accused of playing people psychologically when she's been doing it to him forever) and tragic at the same time. I will miss him, but from the burned remains of a friendship I learned and honed my craft even more, so the demise of a friendship at least serves a purpose this time. Besides, with any luck, this situation will galvanize Pat and Heather to get back together in order to "show me I don't know what I'm talking about", and some love will spring from this situation. Finally, people will know that to hate Jeff is to be unified with so many others that it creates a bond between them. In a way, me being a hurtful dick helps the masses more than they realize.



But please, if either of you read this, deliver a message to my former teacher for me. Tell him I'm no longer afraid of "playing with fire", and that I understand what happened in Germany. He'll know what I'm talking about. Then again, maybe he'll lie about it......ah, the man is an inspiration to manipulators everywhere.





Laughing All The Way To The Bank,



- Jeff





Currently listening :
Party Time for Assholes
By The Vindictives
Release date: By 1996-04-08



This is unedited, from his blog...

[Victim026]

Anthrax... Send him Anthrax....

[iron molly black]

Quite the twisted little brain that one has, doesn't he. You are well rid of him, I would say. Doesn't get what he wants, and then professes it was all part of his "master plan". Yeah, right. Good luck with that, buddy. Outing yourself as a sociopath on the web I don't think would make you the most popular person...

[.cOLt.45.]

Fuckin psycho dude...He seems like the person who will
A. Bomb a place (IE school and such)
B. Write a book and continue being a douchebag
C. Lead a country to genocide.

Edit: Forgot to add suicide lol Edited May 28, 2008 by .cOLt.45.

[r1v3th3ad]

Fuckin psycho dude...He seems like the person who will
A. Bomb a place (IE school and such)
B. Write a book and continue being a douchebag
C. Lead a country to genocide.

well, a year and a half ago, he locked himself into his room at the ol' apt, with a gun and had a standoff with the cops...he was "trying to commit suicide"...the cops wrote on the wall to communicate with each other about him so he wouldn't know what they were saying...well, I took over his room at that apt after he went into psych ward for a lil while...wall writting had a lot of disturbing stuff, two or three prior suicide attempts, one was while he was in the air force, he tried to hang himself...
he went off the meds a lil while ago and was having issues again, so I wouldn't be surprised if I hear something in the news

[.cOLt.45.]

Well there's one prediction semi-confirmed.

[r1v3th3ad]

o, here ya go, I just dug this up... http://kdka.com/local/IUP.student.standoff.2.385968.html

[.cOLt.45.]

So did he face charges?

[TheScotsman]

For the love of it all... be damn glad you got rid of this nutter before he did some real damage.

Some "friends" need loosing, and we see a perfect example here.

[r1v3th3ad]

rather than charges, they took his pc and never returned it(he illegally burned movies) and confiscated his nht...he was 302ed and now can never own another firearm...it screwed him over at getting a job at the casino...

[chromecarz00]

You know what man?
This seems right.

[Majid]

Don't waste your thoughts on a piece of shit like this . As we grow older we learn and see more and more that karma is a bitch. He'll get his. Truth is he deserves to get his face smashed for what he did but that would only continue his influence over you. That influence in all its forms should end here and now because he's not worthy of it. I read the whole blog post but all i really had to read was the first paragraph. No real friend would ever hold anything he gives to his friend against him. Let him shove his free shit back up his ass where it came from.

[NUBBS]

Wow that seems scary. He's not just an ass hole, he's a threat to your life.

[mjdx88]

It sucks man...I lost many friends in my life for the pure reason they where assholes trying to get the better of me. Just cut off all contact from him and he will get the message sooner or later. Till then smoke some of your favorite shisha and give your girl a call.

Take it easy dude
Mike

[vaypourus]

I live my drama vicariously through my friends for this reason. I no longer drink, I haven't had a girlfriend in 4 years, and I do whatever the hell I want with nobody to answer to. Makes things so simple.

If my friends step out of line, it is thankfully never over a woman. Being that women are not involved, its a hell of a lot easier to kick the silly crap out of them if they deserve it.