Who Is "ilikemyusername"?

[ilikemyusername]

I am not a man that talks much about himself, but here it is...
I don't have many friends, and the ones i do have I don't have much in common with.
I got married April 18th this year to the mother of my 5 year old daughter.
some people see the depth in my eyes and think I must be nuts.
I have a naturally "funny" aura where the things i think are litterally made into energy. I can do all sorts of fun stuff with my chakras, my favorite being spiralling my crown to absolutely rediculous sizes. I imagine them to be all sorts of different shapes, like squares and galaxies.
I find myself connected to the world around me yet disconected by social standards.
I have walked into other peoples dreams, later i tell them what they were dreaming about. Naturally some of you think I'm crazy, or making it up.
I remember being a young child and knowing that i would one day know what i didn't know yet, but that it was right around the corner. My mom would always ask me what the weather would be like and i would tell her, I could tell her when it would rain, almost down to the minute. I think she got freaked out so we quit playing that game.

A scorpio born november 10th 1981 at around 3:30 pm. It was a tuesday.

I live my life by a philosophy that came to me one day when I was 17. It has drastically changed my life. I consider it to be iron clad and all encompassing. I'ts also a double edged sword. It started out small, but the more i thought about it the more reinforced it became and the more real it was. The more detatched I became. I soon found myself having less in common with my highschool friends and thier drama and came to the conclusion that i need to get away from these people. So i cursed one as a witch and told her she needed to be burned at the stake! after that I left. I recieved telephone calls from my friends but had nothing to talk about. After a couple of years they stopped calling.
My only friend that i still have from back then just met the 5th girl he's been madly in love with and moved to colorado. He'll be back. I met my wife when i was 21. we had a child in 2004. She'll be 5 soon. We got married April 18th 2009.

The philosophy I live my life by trancends all religion and is so simple, so basic you won't believe your ears. It lead me to fully understanding the point of life. I say point because there is no meaning, only a point. This knowledge has led me into a rut.
I wanted to be an engineer, you know... build stuff.I have the mind for creation, no longer the drive. I had the means to go to school and realize my dreams, instead i work at a non-profit no-kill animal shelter. I feel that my work has meaning and thats nice, but my paychecks arent. I don't sweat the big stuff, because i already know how it all plays out in the end. I die, a hundred years later nobody knows I was here. Same with my great grandparents. I do however sweat the small stuff. I suffer from "anxiety" however i know that what i suffer from is a rogue energy that i created long ago and soomehow breathed "life"into. It won't go away. I have spent many hours in meditation trying to get past it, I've even caged it, but to no avail.
The philosophy I live my life by is "thats what you're here for"
careful with that, it has the power to detatch even the most stubborn of minds.
The point of life is to experience. Thats all, to learn in this life to take into the next and on and on and on. We are all little pieces of god, and us interacting is how god learns.
The world we live in is made of matter, matter is broken down into atoms, atoms are broken down into 3 states of electric particles. positive negative and neutral. theres electric impulses in your brain, electricity in my computer and electric particles making up my desk.
The world we live in is made out of energy and so am I.

[Canon]

Good reading John.

[joytron]

tell me more about focusing your chakras.



it kinda sucks when you realize you have nothing in common with your friends, same thing happened to me after high school and you know what im a lot better for it. Edited May 29, 2009 by joytron

[ilikemyusername]

I just relax my mind, still my thoughts.
It's almost like a secondary consciousness pops in, everyone has it, you'll get to know it. It's the stillness where you can still think, just not with words. It is necessary to become accustomed to this state of mind in order to work with energy.
No healer in the world can do anything hopped up on coffee and worried about what color to paint thier bathroom.
The most important thing i can say, and probably the most powerful and most over used when it comes to this sort of thing is ...
dont think about what you're doing, just do it.
Your subconscious mind knows what the ego is thinking, so stop thinking and do it.
If you understand the energy channels and colors that helps alot.
What i've done is to start with my root, spread the grounding red energy to my legs and extend it into the earth, like roots to a tree. (qi gong)
To practice i would say think about something on your body like your knee. Think about your knee, feel it with your mind, feel it from the knees point of view. Almost instantly when you get it you'll be able to move the awareness of the knee to up and down your leg without breaking your concentration.
practice this a bit and move your awareness of your body to anywhere, thats all there is to it.

[Hojo]

I really like this. Thanks for sharing all of this with us. I love getting to know HF members better, and it's really cool that you opened up and let us know a little bit about you.

[liquidglass]

I just relax my mind, still my thoughts.
It's almost like a secondary consciousness pops in, everyone has it, you'll get to know it. It's the stillness where you can still think, just not with words. It is necessary to become accustomed to this state of mind in order to work with energy.
No healer in the world can do anything hopped up on coffee and worried about what color to paint thier bathroom.
The most important thing i can say, and probably the most powerful and most over used when it comes to this sort of thing is ...
dont think about what you're doing, just do it.
Your subconscious mind knows what the ego is thinking, so stop thinking and do it.
If you understand the energy channels and colors that helps alot.
What i've done is to start with my root, spread the grounding red energy to my legs and extend it into the earth, like roots to a tree. (qi gong)
To practice i would say think about something on your body like your knee. Think about your knee, feel it with your mind, feel it from the knees point of view. Almost instantly when you get it you'll be able to move the awareness of the knee to up and down your leg without breaking your concentration.
practice this a bit and move your awareness of your body to anywhere, thats all there is to it.

While my view on life may not be in sync with yours I appreciated you opening up and letting us know a little bit more about you.

The reason I bolded that statement, is that in all things dealing with the inner self that is honestly the best way to do it, and in a lot of things in life as well.

[ilikemyusername]

I just relax my mind, still my thoughts.
It's almost like a secondary consciousness pops in, everyone has it, you'll get to know it. It's the stillness where you can still think, just not with words. It is necessary to become accustomed to this state of mind in order to work with energy.
No healer in the world can do anything hopped up on coffee and worried about what color to paint thier bathroom.
The most important thing i can say, and probably the most powerful and most over used when it comes to this sort of thing is ...
dont think about what you're doing, just do it.
Your subconscious mind knows what the ego is thinking, so stop thinking and do it.
If you understand the energy channels and colors that helps alot.
What i've done is to start with my root, spread the grounding red energy to my legs and extend it into the earth, like roots to a tree. (qi gong)
To practice i would say think about something on your body like your knee. Think about your knee, feel it with your mind, feel it from the knees point of view. Almost instantly when you get it you'll be able to move the awareness of the knee to up and down your leg without breaking your concentration.
practice this a bit and move your awareness of your body to anywhere, thats all there is to it.

While my view on life may not be in sync with yours I appreciated you opening up and letting us know a little bit more about you.

The reason I bolded that statement, is that in all things dealing with the inner self that is honestly the only way to do it, and in a lot of things in life as well.

absolutely

[ilikemyusername]

Sorry if i ended up sounding a little looney.

[Canon]

you are loony, in a good way, what did you believe in before you were 17?

[Vampy6997]

I was born 4 days after you, and I have a few similarities on the spiritual aspect, which is interesting.

Kudos to you, you don't sound looney to me.

[ilikemyusername]

you are loony, in a good way, what did you believe in before you were 17?

I was forced into a southern baptist school when I was young, so i was force-fed all that, but i lost my faith when i was told there was no such thing as aliens and dinosaurs never existed, that thier bones were just rocks. Penguins were never mentioned in the bible but i know they're real.
after that I just didn't buy it and would later find myself searching through books for something to believe in.

I was born 4 days after you, and I have a few similarities on the spiritual aspect, which is interesting.

Kudos to you, you don't sound looney to me.

good, nice to have another scorpio on the board.