I Had A Dream...

[delSol_si]

Lately, I have been having crazy insomnia. I can't sleep worth anything. I seriously get like 4 or 5 hours of sleep a night max. I usually lay down to go to bed anywhere between 11pm and 2am. Usually, I will lay there for a really long time and not be able to get to sleep. After I get to sleep, I can normally only stay asleep around 1.5-2 hours before I wake up for some reason or another. I don't take naps, can't for some reason.

I have also been told by my roommate and his girlfriend that I am very restless while sleeping, I am constantly moving around, sometimes making disgruntled noises and so forth. Every time I wake up, I hurt bad, my back, everything. But, usually after I am up for about 30 min to an hour, all the pains go away.

Last night was very weird, everything happened like I have said above, except I had a very interesting dream, to me at least:

There is this girl I go to school with, well, a couple of them. I am very much attracted to both of them. The one that I spend a lot of time with and get along great with, have a lot of really deep convos with, have shared some very personal stuff with that very few people know about, she is married. I don't mind messing around with a guys girlfriend (as long as the guy is not my friend) but I am against messing with another guys wife. I believe marriage is a promise between those two people and God, and I am not to interfere with that promise no matter how I feel. So, she is not dateable.

The second girl....she is absolutely gorgeous to me. She is not the typical tanned societal hott girl. She is one of those girls that is gorgeous to MY eyes. I imagine she is attractive to other guys too, but I am just saying she doesnt fit society's definition of extremely hott. To me, she has natural beauty. I absolutely hate it when she wears makeup. She looks fine with makeup, she looks fine no matter what she does, but I just like her natural, without it. Every time I am with her, I feel something...I can't describe it. She is one of the hardest girls to read as well...she sends mixed signals to me, either that or maybe I am jsut not reading them correctly. Regardless, I know she is sending at least some mixed signals though...I talked to my other girl friend( the married one) who also knows this girl and used to be good friends with her, and she said the same thing.

I don't even really know this girl all that well and I already know I would spend the rest of my life with her if I could. And just so you don't get the wrong idea, I have known her for like 2-3 years now, so i didn't jsut meet her. I have had a crush on here since the first time I laid eyed on her. My first day coming to SEMO, I went into my first class, accounting I think, and I didn't know anyone because I was a transfer student, I saw her in the first row, so I said "hey, do you mind if I sit next to you?" and she said "sure" and from then on....I just can't describe the feeling, I knew she was a special person to me.

I have talked about this in chat before, so for my chat buddies you know what I am talking about.

Back to the dream...I don't remember all of the dream, but this part stuck out. I was living in a house or apartment or something, it doesn't matter. And for some reason, I had just gotten together with this girl, the one i just mentioned. We kissed and I felt like my life was complete....like the world could end and I would be the happiest person on earth. That feeling that nothing else matter except for that one person in front of you. I wanted to have kids with her, not because I particularly want kids, but more that I know she wants them and I want to share myself with her in that way, I want to father her kids.

So, then later she decides to start the process of moving in with me. She has moved a few things, and then brings in 6 hookahs. They were all about 32-36" hookahs. I remember one being a copper plated syrian hookah with a vase that looked like a combination between a czech crystal vase and the pineapple vase. It was absolutely gorgeous. Next was a OG tri-metal, a KM sig, a black sig, and the last two were similar. I couldn't help but think, "wow gorgeous hookahs and a gorgeous girl, what could be better?"

And then, the thought that went through my head was "the only thing in the world that I am worried about is if this girl leaves me"


So, i don't know what this dream means, or if it means anything at all...I don't know how to interpret dreams....or if they can be interpreted. I normally wouldn't post something like this, I know its a lot to read, but i dunno, i just really hit me hard.

Also, with the girl mentioned, as many of my chat buddies know, I am totally scared shitless of asking her out because she is one of those girls that likes her space and isn't totally fond of guys, like, almost all of her friends are girls. So, I am afraid of getting to close and scaring her off and her not wanting to be in my life anymore at all...if that makes since.....like, I don't want her to think that the only thing I am after is sexual pleasure and all that jazz, because I'm not, I'm out to form a meaningful and passionate relationship, the physical part is not that important to me yet. Theres is more to this...but I feel it is best for me to leave that out, my chat buddies will know what I am talking about more than likely.

Anyway, sorry again, but I just wanted to see if anyone has any ideas or anything like that, this dream really hit me hard.

[bellaxovita]

my mom and i both suffer from sleep apnea. and it sounds a lot like that's what you have...with the noises and being restless....the pain comes from not sleeping well. but on the other hand of that you should constantly be tired. so maybe you have a bit of both. i suggest seeing a dr. about it. if nothing else get some simply sleep and see if that doesn't help.

[alexander]

Whenever I dream, its about the things that I care about the most or that predominate my life. Because of this, I use my dreams to gain a better understanding about myself. I am by no means any kind of expert on dreams, but I simply use them as a tool in my journey of self-realization.

Your description of the connection you have with this girl is very familiar to me, I'm in a very similar situation. I've known this girl for several years, and feel exactly the same way even though she lives over 1000 miles away. I believe that human beings interact on a much higher level beyond that of language and physical interaction, all humans produce a unique energy that plays a big role in how we feel towards others. Our individual energies can react with one another both in a complementary and antagonistic way. A deep connection can be made with someone else if both of your energies complement one another. This explains how you were able to feel connected to this girl even though you had never met her before.

I'm sorry I can't explain this any better, as I have a lot of trouble expressing my thoughts accurately through writing or speaking. If you don't understand something I said, I'll do my best to clarify.

[Arcane]

well, i think people dream about stuff they're really concerned about or stuff that occupies their mind a lot...like what alexander said...

imo, i think it's just your subconscious or whatever you want to call it, trying to sort things out...sometimes, its just your mind playing out your hearts desires...remember that disney quote? "A dream's a wish your heart makes." as corny as it sounds, sometimes it makes sense...

does it mean you should ask her out? not necessarily...would it hurt? most likely not...but, i do understand being a bit scared about ruining a friendship over feelings. if your friendship is pretty solid, i would say just start going to social events together...like, meet up with friends...but, pick her up or even have her pick you up. have fun and just spend time together...

if things are blatantly going well, just try...ask her out...you'll never know until you try...

[bellaxovita]

if things are blatantly going well, just try...ask her out...you'll never know until you try...

Best advice anyone could give. You know what? If you ask someone out and they turn you down don't be ashamed...don't take it the wrong way. It just means that is not the person you are going to end up with...what comes next is better then what came before...always.

[delSol_si]

ya...i may have to just bite the bullet. The only thing is the timing...i don't want to do it too soon or too late. Too soon and she will think i am rushing it and will avoid me, too late, and well...its too late...I also don't get why the hookahs were in there. That part was not a joke, I am for real about it....not sure if that is bad or good or neither.

[bellaxovita]

never too soon or late. the only thing that would be too late is if you were hanging out often and she was throwing you signs and you weren't reading then and she got fed up. just start hanging out. invite her for some coffee or ask her to go grab some pizza with you or something...anything. you should be able to start picking up signals...unless you're blind or deaf. if she touches your arm and laughs a lot that's pretty typical of American girl flirting...and don't worry we'll be here for you

[delSol_si]

yay, i like HF love...you should stop by chat sometime...

[Arcane]

never too soon or late. the only thing that would be too late is if you were hanging out often and she was throwing you signs and you weren't reading then and she got fed up. just start hanging out. invite her for some coffee or ask her to go grab some pizza with you or something...anything. you should be able to start picking up signals...unless you're blind or deaf. if she touches your arm and laughs a lot that's pretty typical of American girl flirting...and don't worry we'll be here for you

yeah...i mean, you guys have known each other for 2-3 years...i dunno if "rushing it" is even a possibility...

but, yeah...look for obvious signs...i've noticed that girls don't do subtle if they want something...so, laughing and touching your arm are good hints....if she rubs your leg...or more...i'm pretty sure you got a good chance...

[joytron]

in my dreams its always my gf destroying my mini phunnel or a surfboard and my mom throwing out my tobacco

[BBKakes]

my mom and i both suffer from sleep apnea. and it sounds a lot like that's what you have...with the noises and being restless....the pain comes from not sleeping well. ...

+1

I have sever sleep apnea and use a CPAP to sleep. It sucks but I can sleep again.

Tyler, if you have good health insurance, set an appt to take a sleep test.

[Hippo_Master]

Sounds as if you like hookahs more than girls.

"So, then later she decides to start the process of moving in with me. She has moved a few things, and then brings in 6 hookahs. They were all about 32-36" hookahs. I remember one being a copper plated syrian hookah with a vase that looked like a combination between a czech crystal vase and the pineapple vase. It was absolutely gorgeous. Next was a OG tri-metal, a KM sig, a black sig, and the last two were similar. I couldn't help but think, "wow gorgeous hookahs and a gorgeous girl, what could be better?"

"gorgeous hookahs" is first. Edited November 21, 2009 by Hippo_Master